Its been awhile since I last posted. Life continues to be good. Challenge is good. Less aching is good. Less sadness is good.
Onwards and upwards. I am having too much fun, getting too involved in my life to be sad for long.
Thats good. Thats bloody fantastic.
Wednesday, 13 July 2011
Tuesday, 31 May 2011
Post Bank Holiday
Rain rain and even more rain over the bank holiday. Isabella stayed over at Jorge's house for two nights. She is becoming a handful. That teenage angst. Seriously. Always knows more than mom and dad. Mom and dad is the old fuddy duddy. Sarcasm flying across and no appreciation of money, hard earn money. Everything is Abercrombie is fantastic, Hollister too. But Zara is gross, its awful.
Try telling a teenager that charging £72 for a pink cotton shirt is a plain rip off. How many more of the teenage years do I have in store for me?
Might just drive me to drink
Try telling a teenager that charging £72 for a pink cotton shirt is a plain rip off. How many more of the teenage years do I have in store for me?
Might just drive me to drink
Thursday, 26 May 2011
Quotes
I needed some things done in the house - shutters for the patio, new wooden entrance door, upholstery and maybe a new kitchen.
The shutters man came last week, the quote was an eye watering of nearly £3,000. Yesterday, the door company came it was even more expensive, £5,200.00. It is a plain wooden oak door, why is it so expensive?
Ripped off Britain springs to mind again
The shutters man came last week, the quote was an eye watering of nearly £3,000. Yesterday, the door company came it was even more expensive, £5,200.00. It is a plain wooden oak door, why is it so expensive?
Ripped off Britain springs to mind again
Rainy dull Thursday
Its been a dull Thursday, rainy and drizzly. Life is good, have had a suggestion thats came from the left field. Totally unexpected. Flattering but unexpected.
At one point it ticks a lot of the boxes. I was awhile back entertaining the idea of an FWB, just occasionally, as and when. The sticky wicky is that he is the fiancee of a good and close friend of mine. I have tried to be forthright with her, asking her some uncomfortable questions. However, she has this bravado about her, which I know deep down inside doesn't run through. I have also gone through enough with her to know that she have had problems in accepting his liasions; especially liasions whereby she knows off that person.
The good thing about this, if there's such a thing, is that its an FWB situation, he knows that he is a FWB and I know that he is a FWB, nothing more than that. It will never be more than that. But and it is a big but, I don't want to ever hurt my good friend. Her friendship is by far more important to me than sex, casual sex.
Furthermore, in my head, I have never entertained nor thought about him in any other ways; other than as my good friend's fiancee.
I don't think so. I doubt it. Life is good now. Its on an even kneel. Why jeorpardise it?
At one point it ticks a lot of the boxes. I was awhile back entertaining the idea of an FWB, just occasionally, as and when. The sticky wicky is that he is the fiancee of a good and close friend of mine. I have tried to be forthright with her, asking her some uncomfortable questions. However, she has this bravado about her, which I know deep down inside doesn't run through. I have also gone through enough with her to know that she have had problems in accepting his liasions; especially liasions whereby she knows off that person.
The good thing about this, if there's such a thing, is that its an FWB situation, he knows that he is a FWB and I know that he is a FWB, nothing more than that. It will never be more than that. But and it is a big but, I don't want to ever hurt my good friend. Her friendship is by far more important to me than sex, casual sex.
Furthermore, in my head, I have never entertained nor thought about him in any other ways; other than as my good friend's fiancee.
I don't think so. I doubt it. Life is good now. Its on an even kneel. Why jeorpardise it?
Thursday, 19 May 2011
Looking forward to the weekend
Its been a long ole week this week. Too much socialising. It has been good but it also shows that I am not one for flirting and endless amounts of small talk, night after night. Listening to BS and even more BS.
Flat has been rented out for over a week now. It didn't stay on the market for long, a mere 2 days. It was a mad scramble, last minute tidying up and boxing some bits and pieces for the final push. Everyone pitched in, Chris in particular. Its all sorted now, tenants are in. Last week there had been a lot of hand holding by me and the agents involved since living in London is a completely new culture to this family. I am glad that they have finally settle down now, its been exhausting as well as stressful all this babying.
There are some bits and pieces that needs doing around the house, now that the weather is finally looking up. For the past 2 days, it has been getting Isabella's bedroom updated, with a promise that she will have to remove and maintain a clutter free bedroom. lol I wonder how long this clutter free vibe will last.
Then it is repotting of a lot of plants. All my palm trees at the front have all died due to the severe last winter even though these palm trees are hardy. Last winter had been really bad.
Regrouting all the bathrooms, now thats a must, particularly mom's bathroom. Its nasty. Then its the extension revival. Maybe a new kitchen. I am going to Homebase on Saturday for an initial quote.
Repaving the back patio is another job for this summer.
Endless little jobs lol.
Flat has been rented out for over a week now. It didn't stay on the market for long, a mere 2 days. It was a mad scramble, last minute tidying up and boxing some bits and pieces for the final push. Everyone pitched in, Chris in particular. Its all sorted now, tenants are in. Last week there had been a lot of hand holding by me and the agents involved since living in London is a completely new culture to this family. I am glad that they have finally settle down now, its been exhausting as well as stressful all this babying.
There are some bits and pieces that needs doing around the house, now that the weather is finally looking up. For the past 2 days, it has been getting Isabella's bedroom updated, with a promise that she will have to remove and maintain a clutter free bedroom. lol I wonder how long this clutter free vibe will last.
Then it is repotting of a lot of plants. All my palm trees at the front have all died due to the severe last winter even though these palm trees are hardy. Last winter had been really bad.
Regrouting all the bathrooms, now thats a must, particularly mom's bathroom. Its nasty. Then its the extension revival. Maybe a new kitchen. I am going to Homebase on Saturday for an initial quote.
Repaving the back patio is another job for this summer.
Endless little jobs lol.
Friday, 6 May 2011
May now
Came back holiday a week ago now. Work is nearly all caught up. Holiday has been good. Rested and cleared a lot of cobwebs.
Its good. Road ahead looks clearer.
Its good. Road ahead looks clearer.
Monday, 4 April 2011
Sunny April
Its been awhile. Life has been busy and I am living my life. He is still hovering around with occasional text messages and some phone calls. No more email exchanges.
He has been trying to find information and rope me back into his vicious circle. I found myself, unmoved, other than some sympathetic feeling that he is unable to sustain an errection. I firmly believe that he is trying to rope me in, because he reckons that I am the answer to his inability to perform. He kept asking me about my sex life. I refused to be drawn into it. If he text me, I reply. He sounds desparate these days, hanging on, desparately hanging on.
Its his life. I am free. I am happy.
He has been trying to find information and rope me back into his vicious circle. I found myself, unmoved, other than some sympathetic feeling that he is unable to sustain an errection. I firmly believe that he is trying to rope me in, because he reckons that I am the answer to his inability to perform. He kept asking me about my sex life. I refused to be drawn into it. If he text me, I reply. He sounds desparate these days, hanging on, desparately hanging on.
Its his life. I am free. I am happy.
Tuesday, 22 March 2011
Post Mortem weekend
The weekend was blissful. Sun is shining. Tasks aplenty. CarpetRight, lava lamps, KFH and Highgate were all to do on Saturday.
In the evening we went to the Katy Perry's gig at Hammersmith Apollo. So, were we the middle age farts seen bopping around! Shame!! The gig itself was too candy sugar coated and a tad patronising, I thought. Maybe I just have a bee in my bonnet about being patronised.
Sunday was a delightful day. Met up with Tracy, we had lunch then a stroll and window shop, from Marylebone to Regents Street. My kind of shopping, look and examine and walk away having bought nothing.
And now today is Tuesday. Why has the week gone?
In the evening we went to the Katy Perry's gig at Hammersmith Apollo. So, were we the middle age farts seen bopping around! Shame!! The gig itself was too candy sugar coated and a tad patronising, I thought. Maybe I just have a bee in my bonnet about being patronised.
Sunday was a delightful day. Met up with Tracy, we had lunch then a stroll and window shop, from Marylebone to Regents Street. My kind of shopping, look and examine and walk away having bought nothing.
And now today is Tuesday. Why has the week gone?
Friday, 18 March 2011
Norwegian Wood
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norwegian_Wood_(novel)
We went to the Hampstead Everyman theatre yesterday evening. The original Everyman cinema, has been refurbished years ago with big sofas and cushions. Its a cinema that do not serve sodas, hotdogs and popcorn.
The movie itself was an adaptation from the book. The cinematography was captured beautifully. However, the book was too beautifully written and translated and that didn't come across in the movie. A pity really.
Busy weekend ahead. CarpetRight tomorrow, Katy Perry in the evening. Tracy on Sunday. Good to be busy.
Work has been extremely busy as well. Its the voliatily in the market, I suppose. The civil unrest in the Middle East. Spiking oil prices. Earthquakes in New Zealand and Japan.
We went to the Hampstead Everyman theatre yesterday evening. The original Everyman cinema, has been refurbished years ago with big sofas and cushions. Its a cinema that do not serve sodas, hotdogs and popcorn.
The movie itself was an adaptation from the book. The cinematography was captured beautifully. However, the book was too beautifully written and translated and that didn't come across in the movie. A pity really.
Busy weekend ahead. CarpetRight tomorrow, Katy Perry in the evening. Tracy on Sunday. Good to be busy.
Work has been extremely busy as well. Its the voliatily in the market, I suppose. The civil unrest in the Middle East. Spiking oil prices. Earthquakes in New Zealand and Japan.
Wednesday, 16 March 2011
Monday, 14 March 2011
West Wing
We completed watching The West Wing over the weekend. What a brillant script writer Aaron Sorkin is. The series were perfectly crafted and scenes were written beautifully. The actors were brillant Martin Sheen, Lily Tomlin. Actresses too.
I miss it already. It was so beautifully crafted so true to today's politics, its uncanny.
I miss it already. It was so beautifully crafted so true to today's politics, its uncanny.
Shocked horror
What's there to say? I came into work blurry eyed Friday morning and watched the tsunami live on TV. Live TV sometimes is and can be sickening. This is one of those times.
Saturday morning I was glued to the TV in a rather morbid sickening sort of way. I am sure that the TV viewing audience was in the trillions and probably it will solve the UK as well as the US budget deficit. Is it glorifying a crisis? Yes, no doubt about it.
The displaced people. The survivors. The dead. The missing.
The crass people wrote about how this will be good for the Japanese economy in the medium and longer term once the search and rescue and the aftershocks had subsided. There are also traders and dealers here that is thinking about the supply versus demand and the push on prices of commodities. The spin that is here today, listening in on the dealers predicting or not predicting the prices and the outlook. There are people out there that seems to think it is a simple problem - reduce the dependency on petrol.
Its inevitable, life goes on but maybe, just maybe for a short space of time, let the Japanese people in peace whilst they fight to restore some semblance of a daily life. Whilst the nuclear reactors meltdown. Whilst the international search and rescue are searching and discovering the dead, burying the dead.
The FTSE fell. The Brent Crude fell too as well as the major currencies and majority of the commodity companies and insurance and reinsurance companies. Surprisingly, LVMH and Burberry stocks fell as well.
Saturday morning I was glued to the TV in a rather morbid sickening sort of way. I am sure that the TV viewing audience was in the trillions and probably it will solve the UK as well as the US budget deficit. Is it glorifying a crisis? Yes, no doubt about it.
The displaced people. The survivors. The dead. The missing.
The crass people wrote about how this will be good for the Japanese economy in the medium and longer term once the search and rescue and the aftershocks had subsided. There are also traders and dealers here that is thinking about the supply versus demand and the push on prices of commodities. The spin that is here today, listening in on the dealers predicting or not predicting the prices and the outlook. There are people out there that seems to think it is a simple problem - reduce the dependency on petrol.
Its inevitable, life goes on but maybe, just maybe for a short space of time, let the Japanese people in peace whilst they fight to restore some semblance of a daily life. Whilst the nuclear reactors meltdown. Whilst the international search and rescue are searching and discovering the dead, burying the dead.
The FTSE fell. The Brent Crude fell too as well as the major currencies and majority of the commodity companies and insurance and reinsurance companies. Surprisingly, LVMH and Burberry stocks fell as well.
Thursday, 10 March 2011
IDK
I have a distinct feeling that he has tried to get an errection but found himself unable to. I had thought that I would feel cheated once I found out but I didn't feel anything other than sympathy. We are still friends and he should try the honesty pill.
He sent me a text just now asking me if I still love him and do I love him?
IDK. I know one thing- I am not ever going back on the vicious cycle. I am not up for the one holding it together knowing that he can't love nor can ever love me. Kim tells me that I am looking for a fairytale love story.
If he had asked me the question a year ago, I would have said yes. Now IDK. Surely thats a tiny step forward?
Not to mention, I like myself a whole lot better. I may not have the sexual animalistic chemistry in my relationship but I revel in the stability and the anchor that its provided me. I like to be loved by someone and being cared for, someone that I can count upon. I can lean on Chris and Chris isn't afraid to lean on me. Stability is what I need.
It has been awhile but I am finally happy and I will not allow him to wreck my life again
He sent me a text just now asking me if I still love him and do I love him?
IDK. I know one thing- I am not ever going back on the vicious cycle. I am not up for the one holding it together knowing that he can't love nor can ever love me. Kim tells me that I am looking for a fairytale love story.
If he had asked me the question a year ago, I would have said yes. Now IDK. Surely thats a tiny step forward?
Not to mention, I like myself a whole lot better. I may not have the sexual animalistic chemistry in my relationship but I revel in the stability and the anchor that its provided me. I like to be loved by someone and being cared for, someone that I can count upon. I can lean on Chris and Chris isn't afraid to lean on me. Stability is what I need.
It has been awhile but I am finally happy and I will not allow him to wreck my life again
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
Ash Wednesday
What a beautiful spring day. The sun is out and shining bright. I love it when the sun is out. Its beautiful. Georgeous. Makes me think off daffodils and primroses
Tuesday, 8 March 2011
Shrove Tuesday
I fell down this morning walking from Moorgate to The Gherkin. Bruised my knees and my elbows. Scuffed my ankle boots. My trousers gotten dirty and my winter coat too. I didn't hurt myself badly just my dignity. Slipped.
Embrassed myself instead.
Isabella is poorly. She stayed home from school. Pawel has moved into the flat and hopefully started demolishing.
Embrassed myself instead.
Isabella is poorly. She stayed home from school. Pawel has moved into the flat and hopefully started demolishing.
Monday, 7 March 2011
Breakthrough
He is an accessory in my life. He can accept my terms and if he tried to dictate his terms he can now shove his terms up his perverbial.
Relaxing Monday
The weekend had been hectic. Found myself walking up and down Hampstead 4 times on Saturday and walked home from Kentish Town. It was hilarious though.
We bought Isabella her first adult bike on Saturday. It has 21gears, its mind boggling. She kept looking at the bike, ogling it and kept repeating the sentence, "its big, its huge". It has not hit her fully yet, that she is no longer on those Barbie bikes. She loves her bike, needless to say.
Her birthday party was on Saturday evening, a murder mystery dinner at a hotel in Russell Square. All her friends showed up and dressed up appropriately to play the role they were assigned to that evening and it was based upon The Curse of Soloman's ring in 1923. Chris and I went out to dinner at a local restaurant with some friends of ours, whilst the party was on.
Isabella later that evening proclaimed that it was one of her best birthday party ever. But she didn't realise how much work went into organising it all.
Sunday was more at a relaxing pace. I went to our local fishmonger, French/Japanese. He gave me tons of fish heads all free. How kind of him. We got chatting about him setting up a cookery school in the basement and his freebie Japanese tasting fish dishes this weekend. It was fun. I had fun, chatting about cultures and cuisines and living here.
We bought Isabella her first adult bike on Saturday. It has 21gears, its mind boggling. She kept looking at the bike, ogling it and kept repeating the sentence, "its big, its huge". It has not hit her fully yet, that she is no longer on those Barbie bikes. She loves her bike, needless to say.
Her birthday party was on Saturday evening, a murder mystery dinner at a hotel in Russell Square. All her friends showed up and dressed up appropriately to play the role they were assigned to that evening and it was based upon The Curse of Soloman's ring in 1923. Chris and I went out to dinner at a local restaurant with some friends of ours, whilst the party was on.
Isabella later that evening proclaimed that it was one of her best birthday party ever. But she didn't realise how much work went into organising it all.
Sunday was more at a relaxing pace. I went to our local fishmonger, French/Japanese. He gave me tons of fish heads all free. How kind of him. We got chatting about him setting up a cookery school in the basement and his freebie Japanese tasting fish dishes this weekend. It was fun. I had fun, chatting about cultures and cuisines and living here.
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